Something really bad just happened at school these two days, and several students from overseas were supposedly kicked out of the program. They broke the rules that we’ve made clear to them, and.. anyways, the whole situation was really stupid and sad.
So, supposedly they should be kicked out of the program and homestay, which we’ve stated the consequences on the contract with the group. However, my supervisor felt bad for the students, so she decided to take the 2 girls from those problem makers.
I finally met the two girls today. They walked in the office asking for my supervisor’s husband to take them home. (Well, her husband is my supervisor too...) He is still busy at work, so the girls stayed at the reception area for him.
Then, I wanted to be friendly with them, so I approached them... After awhile I just gave up. They just kept complaining about the school, about the program, saying that it’s all our fault, homestay is blah blah blah.... When I talked to them, especially one of the girls is filled with hatred. It’s just her second day here in LA, and she decided to hate this school and stuff. She didn’t even want to join the field trip with the other students. I kept silent, but inside it was rage..... Before I left, I told them to have fun, and this girl with much hatred just gave me this face and said in Chinese that this place was no fun. I told her that if she kept thinking this way, no place is fun for her. Then I left.
While I was driving home, I was just so angry that I knew I had to stop and pray. As I were praying, I started to cry. I realized how bitter she is. She never feels sorry for her behavior and attitude, yet kept attributing faults to everyone around her. She blames everyone but herself. She even complained about my supervisor’s place..... She is in such a little world of herself, with all this hatred, negative thoughts, and complaints. She forgot that she was supposedly be kicked out of the program (yet she stays) and the homestay (yet my supervisor takes her).
This is grace, isn’t it? She deserved dismissal from school, but she didn’t got kicked off. She deserved staying at a hotel on her own cost, but someone took her. This is grace. Yet, she doesn’t realize that it is grace.......
But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. (Romans 5:8)
We broke His rules, and short of His glory. Yet, He decided to die for us before we even recognize our sins, before we repent, before we realize it.
Pray that God’ll open up her heart. Let her see something different here. This could be her only time leaving her own country and be challenged and overwhelmed. I don’t want to see her ended up in her little hatred world in China. I could even imagine how little love and grace she received in her entire life....
Keep praying for her; for a change; for a breakthrough. Pray that she’ll realize and truly receive love and grace.
