Amy • Beloved • WanJung

Supposedly I should share something positive about this, but I really couldn't...


The first thing that comes to my mind regarding this experience is really negative...





OKOK... This is about the teaching job that I just finished. Seriously I am very glad that I finally get rid of it.





Actually, I am still thankful for this opportunity that this high school gave me. Not a lot of schools will hire an unexperienced and non-certificated teacher to teach in a high school, and I just got lucky. Of course I still have a lot of comments about the school and curriculum, but let's face it, which school is perfect? Then, I really had the chance to try things out, and got to know what worked well and what didn't work at all.





As for the students, I guess this was where most troubles came from. I actually got to know a lot of good students and enjoyed the teaching. However, there were just several students who didn't know how to respect teachers. I got a student with some behavior problems that he often showed me the attitude when he got bored, by slamming the door, swearing, hitting the board hard, etc. And the problem was, he always got bored! Not only this, he thought his English was really good, better than the other students. What's my opinion about that? Nope! His advantage was that he dared to speak out with his poor pronunciation and grammar, but I had really hard time to understand what he said. He never opened his mouth to articulate. His grammar was horribly terribly confusing too. So, of course, I failed him for the first session because of various reasons. However, I totally had no idea that he got the impressions that I failed him just because of his attitude. So, as he changed his attitude in my class (well, he didn't really change the attitude; he just kept himself not doing those violent things), he thought I would pass him. OF COURSE NOT! Students pass courses because of LEARNING! Not just attitude. This student didn't show me his progress, and he was totally in his little own world... So of course he failed again. And you won't believe this. He kept shouting to me asking why, and he just couldn't accept that he did fail this course again. He yelled at me (again), arguing that he should pass the course. Even after I showed him his score for quizzes and assignments, he just couldn't accept it. He whined, yelled, and left with "算你狠." I seriously don't know what to say.... He seemed not learning from this experience that HE FAILED HIMSELF, NOT ME. He thought 只要在我課上不鬧事就可以過, so he was always late; he always turned in his homework late; he copied others homework; he 敷衍我敷衍自己敷衍功課. Not to say his quizzes. He didn't even study!





I don't know what to say... whenever I thought about him, I just got a lot of bitterness in me. This kid is such a spoiled child that he couldn't even face his own failure, or he thought he was perfect in every way? I overheard his conversation with another student that how much his parents gave him for allowance, I was totally shocked. Since then, I know that why he never learned....





I guess I really need to get going... Need to get up early tomorrow. I'll post more about this special experience later.