(sorry I only know it in TESOL or communication terms... )
I figured that it's still difficult for me to have a..... two-way communication with people when it comes to talking about my own spiritual life. The problem is I feel I am judging or praising myself of being a good kid or a bad kid. I could be showing off? or am I really true to myself or God when I write/talk about this kind of statement. I am hesitated. I don't want to make people feel that "see how much/ how horrible/ how difficult that i have been through," so I am better for them. Actually I don't want to feel this way too. That's why I don't want usually say "please pray for my relationship with God" so that others won't feel bad of not saying this prayer request. (OK, I might just think too much...... )
On the other hand, I know why people want to talk about that... of course! So we know how to care aobut each other and see how to pray for each other. Or if a Christian school asks for this sort of info (to employees or applicants) to build up the accountability within this work place. I understand the good side of it..... even though it's just not my personality...
Similarily, I don't say "I love you" too much to people or God. At most, "I miss you" is the only thing I can offer from my mouth, meaning I love you... or any body language or words I can show in communication. I don't expect people say that to me either. If they do, I would feel awkward. I can't even stand people praising me...... (man, now I see the problem...)
(why are my thoughts flowing to this point now? Am I not talking about communication or sharing? Now it's to a total different subject... )
So I know how traditional I am.... way too traditional and Chinese --> never talk about feelings or stuff to people.
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