Never thought of this, but as i read the book of James, God reminded me so many times that I am a double-minded man (心懷二意的人)... I've never thought of this...
James 1:5 "If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him." This is one of the confirmations that I am going for further training. This verse came across in all what I was reading.... yet I never noticed the following verses, probably because I wasn't doubt.
James 1:6-8 "But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does." Not committed enough, to God, to people, to ministry, to everything. I always find or plan "退路" first before I get into something. I always have a lot of excuses or explanations. 交代... It's like my spiritual reputation is more important, so no matter what happens, I need to know how to 交代. So I daydream, I plan, I fool around, I have plan B or C or D, and never *dare* to focus.... or to commit.
還很不足... 超不足... 也很想退後. --> double-minded!! 不要遲疑, 不要疑惑! 以退為進在這邊是不成的! 神難道不曉得!?
No reserves, no retreats, no regrets.
yea i agree. sometimes we think too much. that's why i'm really happy you are actually finally going for it this time. very excited for you! hav fun in urb :)